I Must Be Having Fun

I can't believe it's been over a week since I've blogged. Longer since I've written anything here.

I think there are things I could have written about, but right now I'm so tired that I can't think of any of them.

Thanksgiving break was a flurry of activity; we drove out of state to visit family, then we had family time with a couple of different groups of relatives who live nearby, and finally we had some cousins who were passing through who visited with us. And also there was a beta test of the new Star Wars MMO.

Also I had my final expansion. The procedure itself doesn't hurt, but as my skin stretches and adjusts, I get these sharp stabby pains that are kind of a lot of not-fun. So I've been pretty heavily medicated this week. The days are a mix of struggling to stay alert in school and struggling to nap while at home.

This doesn't feel like a real blog post. I don't have a point.

We're going to Disney World again over winter break. They have waffle sandwiches ... I want to try one. We didn't win the drawing to spend a night in Cinderella Castle. The band teacher said he'd print me a piano arrangement of "Bourbon Street Blues" but I asked back in August and he didn't and then I reminded him around Halloween and he said he'd get it to me by Thanksgiving and he didn't.

It frustrates me when people don't follow through on what they say.

I wish I had a point.

Discipline Update & Freewrite: August 13

Another minor quibble: I think the chemo has made me weak. Physically weak. Know how I can tell? I can't open my own damn med bottles! AUUURGH! hahahaha! of alll the ironies, you know?!

what's especially hilarious about this is that the ONE that I can still open easily - we got it at a different pharmacy - is my pain med. wuhu! ;D

Thing is, most of it's on like a 4ish hour cycle, so now it's just-past-2 AM and I'm awake cuz the antifungal for my thrush wore off and OW OW OW. I may also need to take some more pain meds. I haven't been on them every 4 hours, but I went to BELLYDANCE last night again, YAY!! but it's an advanced class and I think I might well need the pain meds even if I was at full health! WOOO boy, did we work. I was sore afterward but it was a good kind of sore. Stretchy-sore. My range of motion improved dramatically during class (since my latest surgery). Plus I was JUST at the dr today and he said it was okay to stretch. Plus also I was not on prescription pain med during class - just some Aleve - in part because I'm trying to wean off them, but also in part because I don't want to lose awareness and push myself TOO far. Soo yeah, a little tender right now but I think it's all good.

I was thinking earlier tonight about Queen. See, I enjoy quite a few of their songs. But there's one - "Fat-Bottomed Girls" - that has stuck in my craw for a long time. I think it's hateful. Part of that is based on a mis-heard line, but even after finding the corrected version I can't shake it. It's the line "Take me to them dirty ladies every time." Now by "dirty" they mean 'uninhibited;' the song definitely does NOT go for the 'fat=eew!' cultural archetype, which I guess is good at least.

But for the longest time I thought it was "Take me to them lonely ladies every time." And even though it's not, the implication is pretty clear - fat girls are uninhibited because they're so desperately starved for affection. The song is saying that it's great to go out with fat girls because you can get them to do "dirty" things (because they're lonely).

And the song is SO catchy and bouncy and fun-sounding... and I can't stand it anymore. And now that effect has spread to their other songs. I just... listening to even "Crazy Little Thing Called Love" or even "Bohemian Rhapsody" ... it makes me cringe. How can someone create such a happy little song with words that are so hateful? either that or be SO IGNORANT? I mean, just colossally ignorant.

I don't understand that.